Is it just me or does anyone else feel like they are now bipolar with their emotions? I was all set to go apple picking this year. We had extra hand sanitizer, wipes, our masks, and loaded up on oils. Then we got there (shortly after opening) and the line was already behind the building. If I would guess it was 85% of people without masks. Then I begin to (once again) question is it necessary for us to wear masks? Am I overthinking this? My kids immediately notice all the other kids not wearing masks and ask to take their off. Then all the questions begin to rush through my head. Should I stay firm and set an example? What about the emotional part of not seeing faces and what is that doing to psyche state? We are healthy, but should we wear masks to help protect others (we have been traveling)? What will others think if we keep them on? What will others think if we take them off? The questions could go on and on in my head. I am constantly battling. This is one of the reasons I decided to homeschool my kids. I did not want my brain to be overflowing with these thoughts every time I sent my kids to school. Do I think COVID is real? Absolutely! Do I think it is being overplayed with fear and the numbers are inaccurate? Absolutely!
I found myself taking a moment and diving back into my heart and ignoring my brain. I have found this to be more helpful this year more than ever. I told the kids that they could have their masks off when we were not close to others, but in the crowds we need to wear them. It was a happy balance that felt good to me at that time. Overall the kids still had a good time. I am so grateful that my kids have found happiness and stay in the moment of joy during this chaotic time. We played, we got super messy, and came home with more apples than we know what to do with. So the next few weeks, our homeschool learning will be focused on ways to use more apples.
I encourage you all as you decide to step out and be around people to dive into your your heart and listen. The more you do this, the stronger the voice inside you will become. Let’s remember that no matter what we all decide (mask or no mask) to just love and understand that we are all trying to dance on this new stage we are all on. Stay tuned for some of our favorite apple recipes we find.
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